Worlds Apart

Worlds Apart, by Jars of Clay

I am the only one to blame for this
Somehow it all adds up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride I flew too high and like Icarus I collide
With a world I try so hard to leave behind
To rid myself of all but love, To give and die

To turn away and not become
Another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves
More deeply than the oceans,
More abundant than the tear Of a world embracing every heartache

Can I be the one to sacrifice
Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow

To love you - take my world apart
To need you - I am on my knees
To love you - take my world apart
To need you - broken on my knees

All said and done I stand alone
Amongst remains of a life I should not own
It takes all I am to believe
In the mercy that covers me

Did you really have to die for me?
All I am for all you are
Because what I need and what I believe are worlds apart

And I pray, To love you - take my world apart
To need you - I am on my knees
To love you - take my world apart
To need you - broken on my knees

I look beyond the empty cross
Forgetting what my life has cost
And wipe away the crimson stains
And dull the nails that still remains
More and more I need you now,
I owe you more each passing hour
The battle between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain
And wash the feet and cleanse my pride
Take the selfish, take the weak,
And all the things I cannot hide
Take the beauty, take my tears
The sin and soaked heart and make it yours
Take my world all apart
Take it now, take it now
And serve the ones that I despise
Speak the words I can't deny
Watch the world I used to love
Fall to dust and thrown away
I look beyond the empty cross
Forgetting what my life has cost
So wipe away the crimson stains
And dull the nails that still remain
So steal my heart and take the pain
Take the selfish, take the weak
And all the things I cannot hide
Take the beauty, take my tears
Take my world apart, take my world apart
I pray, I pray, I pray
Take my world apart

Worlds Apart.


how i love the lyrics to this song! this is a song that almost speaks to who i am and who i want to be. i want the Lord to take my world apart. i want the Lord to reveal all the junk and ugliness inside of me. so often i cry out to the Lord to take me apart. to show up in my life. to wash me clean of the junk that suddenly takes over and tries to choke me.

why did He have to die for me? why does he love me when i can barely love myself? why do i simply need to fall into the arms of grace when i am a wretched and broken person!

Parker!

Although I have yet to be blessed with a man I can grow old and live this journey with, God has blessed me an incredible little man whom I adore! My nephew Parker continually brings joy and laughter into my life.

Parker is 20 months old and has just recently been trying to day my name. Although, it really doesn't sound anything like Kari, just hearing him try melts my heart everytime!

I have been so so blessed that the Lord has placed this young man in my life! I continue to pray that he would grow up to be a man who runs after and loves the Lord!

Open My Eyes!

So apparently I am not very good at this blog thing...Although as my dear friend Anita knows I only signed up for it so I could post comments on her blog.

But anyway, I thought that I should try to begin. My life really has been a journey lately. Literally as well as spiritually and emotionally. I had the priviledge of doing a bunch of travel for work this past month, something I swore off when I took this new job last fall, and it has been great. It was an amazing reminder to be out on mission sites seeing the lives of youth and adults change, watching staff be stretched and challenged and knowing that God is going to do great things in their lives this summer. It made me miss being a more hands-on part of the action. Out in the field getting dirty working on little sleep and being pushed pulled and prodded on every side. I know that I made the right decision staying at home this summer and working out of the office but I have once again been crying out to the Lord and asking Him to show me why He has me here.

"Open your eyes" is the YouthWorks theme this summer and I have been asking God to do just that for me. I have asked Him to open my eyes to whatever it is that He wants me to see. Right now my eyes are being opened to the fact that I have a God who loves me in spite of everything I am and do, and that I have a God who wants nothing more from me than for me to crawl up into His lap to be loved by him. I marvel that by me falling in love with and taking time to be with God I can be changed and made beautiful. How did I ever deserve such a gift? How am I worthy of a love like this? Why did my Jesus have to and choose to die so that I could be with Him forever...despite the fact that day after day I fall down?

I have no idea how God is going to open my eyes this summer...but I am waiting in anticipation to see that which I know He will do: amaze me, love me, take care of me, wrap His loving arms around me.

"...but the Lord was my support. He brought me out into a spacious place; He rescued me because He delighted in me." Psalm 18:18, 19

Lord, may I be someone who is worthy of your delight!